Nightmare

Yesterday night I slept early as I wasn't feeling well...stomach pain like hell :3 and then in the midnight,I woke up because of what I dreamt.

Let u tell u about my dream. I was dreaming that one day in a cafe ,me ,hippo,fat pig and fat bear were together. ..and then they three talk something but don't wanna let me know..and when I ask fat pig something ,she asked me to shut up. .then I can't tahan anymore..I shouted and fat pig "enough,I know you three has another group conversation that I am not inside ,I know you guys always talk bad about me ,how can u treat me like that ?"

Then fat pig answered me "because I bosong you for sometimes dyy,since today u say this ,I'm gonna tell you,I hate you" And then I cried and slap fat pig :3 and she just went to sit another table..fatbear and hippo followed her and left me alone..I am crying in my dream because I rmb that hippo said I am her second best friend but now fatpig has taken over my place..and I am crying till I don't know actually I am crying in REAL LIFE.

I quickly open my eyes and I was scared...and then I wiped my tears and sleep again. .the same dream goes on...and now I am in a place with many foreigners worker...so dangerous. Every day I walk around that place and think of what fatpig did to me. .why she hate me ? And then I met a boss of a restaurant. .he asked me to be careful because his worker is very dangerous. .

And then my stomach pain again. .I woke up and couldn't continue my sleep for 2 hours. .walao eh..cold water makes me die :3 grrr ....

And this is a weird dream..fatpig ,don't say me sot :(

Report card day ~

Went to school with a happy mood...tot that puan goh wouldn't tell my mum anything of me...out of my expectation,she told my mum I didn't hand in homework sometimes. And she told my mum that I am quite playful but I know how to control myself. ..my mum won't angry because I am playful , she always know that I am naughty. .but,I think she is quite angry with the homework thing because I always tell her I have no homework. Actually I did hand in my homework. .mummy,I can let u check. .my book is complete! Just that teacher didn't record again when I hand in late..zzz

Mum said I must be hard working next time..and then she didn't say anything else dyy. Puan Goh asked me not to get influence by boys ..huuuu ,luckily she told my mum that I know how to love myself by not get influence by boys.if nt I am death.

Ker ryn got scold by her mum. And I already predicted this :3 okay la ,I don't know how to help u . Whatever I did never let you felt better. Nowadays you always say only trisha and jie chen make you feel better..I know la, I am annoying. .

Actually I knew many things,I saw, I heard ...just that I keep inside my heart . don't ask me anything because I won't tell. Seriously,I must tell ,I haven't met someone that can let me laugh all the time ,someone that I can really talk to ,someone that can tahan my attitude.

Jeff ,today is the fourth day that I don't wanna reply u. I don't know how long time I'm gonna take to believe you again..although u sent me a long explanation. To be honest,I threw away that cake but nt shared with others. I brought four cupcakes ,one is for both of us..the other 3 is actually for ker ryn,but since she said she doesn't like fondant cake ,fine then..I can give others. And the hazelnut cake too...I told u the cake must be eaten cold ,and I told u before recess..what for finding me after school?ahahahaha

Ok la,I know everyone bosong me. Puan Yap too. I tell you,I hate ppl calling me my full name ! So puan yap,stop calling me Yew Zhi Ern...sorry for offended ker ryn,I just don't like teachers being unfair. When puan yap marked other ppl's previous exercises ,but she didn't mark mine ! All of them hand in late at the same time as me,but why only scold me ?and why only didn't mark mine ? And when other ppl request to go out ,why didn't you ask them to tell u "pls "?why only me ? Stop being an unfair teacher. .I hate this!

Ok la,government school teacher is really suck ! But u can't deny that some are good like puan lee ..the only teacher I love is puan lee .

That's all ,goodbye

23/6

Today isn't a happy day , but at first it was a happy day for me :) I am so happy that jeff said he will find me and we share one cake ,in the end ,he played inside the spbt room and forget what he had promise. .this isn't angry..or sad..this is just a disappointment that he can't even hold on to his promises and I am not even important.

At last ,I shared every fondant cake to my friend. .for the hazelnut cake ,I threw it to dustbin..u can say I waste food ,I just don't wanna eat something that brings me bad mood.

And when chemistry class,I accidently  fan bai yan to chicken rice :3 he was looking at me when I did that..I am sorry..I am not purposely one :c

Today isn't a happy day ,goodnight

11/6/14 Wednesday

Today is the first day Ker Ryn isn't here with me :3 She is going to Tanjung Sepat for her grandpa's funeral..so ,I will be alone for two days in tuition..I wonder how my tuition will be like ?will I laugh like crazy :(

By the way ,I will bring my moo moo along with me to Grace Tay's tuition,moo moo represents Ker Ryn ! And I am sitting with fat bear today ,hope I can make him smile as he is sad. I feel a bit scared to sit with him alone as he is too quiet :x so ,fat bear,u must make noise arhh xD

I haven't tell jeff that I will be sitting with jie chen today ,he didn't message me today because his house is under renovation and he can't connect to wifi :3  I miss him too

Ker ryn susan lim,faster come back arh ,u know I miss you T.T byee

23.54pm

It is almost midnight xD actually I am really tired but I force myself not to sleep.

I keep waking up in the middle of the night this few days,I don't know what's wrong with me..and I just couldn't fall asleep again until the next morning..
No matter how late I sleep,I still wake up in midnight :(

Today's mood isn't good at all,hahaha...I am not happy xD I chase jeff to sleep and I am alone now ,hehe ..it's ok to be alone since I already used to it for six years,wee

Haha,gonna continue dreaming about my future again ,lifeless ,really lifeless. .bye

My birthday

Wee,let me update my blog before I go to bath

I am so touched that even though I deactivated my Facebook,but there is still people who remember my birthday ,thank you guys T.T

I am making thank you card for my mum yesterday,she saw it this morning and she said that it was warm xD hehe..I success!!

When the clock strikes 12 ,many messages boom into my phone xD ker ryn ,Jeff ,trisha and Tharishinie ..hmm...muackkz. !!ker ryn typed a long msg for me at insta, I love that,u know ? XD I enjoy reading and and..I am really happy :c  Jeff sent me a video xD he played piano for me !! And he still remember everything before we couple..but I forgot everything dyy xD you gave me lots of present this year. .I hope you don't spend too much money anymore :( if you just give me a card,I will be very very happy. .I read your card for two hours ,I am seriously crazy ! Trisha,wee,you sent me lots of kisses ,and and..I am hoping this everytime!! Thanks arhh ♥.♥ Tharishinie,I can't believe that you will know my birthday :( and it's so surprised !I love you

More birthday wishes reach me after that..haha,erm ermm,I won't cry de :pp thanks arhh...infinity thanks to all of you !

Presents that my dear jeff gave me

3/6/14

Time flies :3 it's third of June now...okay...this holiday I've wasted all my time for drama T.T my study plan is failed again :3

I wanna tell my mum that I want crepe cake from coffee ink as my birthday cake..but but...it is too expensive :( I don't want her to use too much money on me...so,this year's cake will be fruity's cake again.

Ok,I am waiting for my mid term exam results to be update. .but teachers are failing me T.T I know this exam I'm gonna drop from heaven to hell..and parents gonna use "I will keep your phone " this line to me again.

I am quite worry about report card day...I wonder will teachers tell my mum that I couple with Jeff? I think yes,because most of the teacher bosong me...God bless me

Gonna do my chemistry chapter5 homework now...Ms Linda is upset when we didn't do her homework. ..and I want my Final Exam to be good!suddenly feel like staying in Berlian again...it's better for my future

But but..before I start doing anything. .let me finish my last two episodes of the moon that embraces the sun xD muackkz kim soo hyun ,I am coming!!bye guys