分手后的第80天

不知不觉已经离开了你的生活第80天。还是很想念你,很怀念我们之间的回忆。这个部落格你应该已经不看了吧,我很想念你。不过既然已经选择了分手,就应该承受这结果。去到哪里都还有你的影子,好像见到你一面,就算是背影也好。。。

My Scoliosis Story

Haha, today I went for the 2nd Chiropractic Adjustment to treat my scoliosis. It was very comfortable, and i felt very relax after my adjustment. My appointment was 10am today, doctor came late as usual. When i was diagnosed with scoliosis,i felt nothing, then when i went Google search i only know how serious it is. The alternative way to avoid surgery is get a chiropractic adjustment.I always wanted to be a chiropractor, but the problem is money. Medical course is always very expensive, and when the whole Malaysia only has one university offers this course, imagine the course fee😐😐😐 When i see Doctor Yang, I am envy that he can achieve his dream ,I wanna be like him.
Doctor Yang taught me some exercise to treat scoliosis, I've tried them out.My stamina is bad,to balance myself already makes me tired and hard to breath. Gonna work out tmr 😤😤😤 My scoliosis is about 30 degree curve, i hope it will be straight again, God bless me 🙏🙏🙏

*p/s Dr.Yang is handsome for me because maybe he is a chiropractor, i really really love chiropractor :( to be honest i don't wanna end my treatment😣😣😣

Last blog before trial(probably)

Ok, let's start from the 19/7/15 , The Champion Group Meeting  actually this meeting is just waste of time and money  no one is studying though, everyone is playing with phone ahahahaha  then i went back home early. Okay, i wanna complaint that this papa don't want to accompany me and went back to find ker ryn and he left me and ji ming in the restaurant alone zzz. This was awkward because i have ntg to talk to Ji Ming when he told me lots of stuffs  feel kinda not polite haih. Jeff's phone charger spoilt on that day too.I cried the whole afternoon until i watch BOSS&ME. Zhang Han had made me smile a lot as he let me remind of Jeff also treat me this way  Jeff, if u are reading this post, then i wanna tell u hor, i love Zhang Han so much because the way he treat his girl is like the way u sayang me  so u don't jealous dyy la 

Btw, i just received my bracelets today.i love them so much that i wanna buy all bracelets in different colour. But i don't have enough money  Adrian bought one for Ker Ryn, i am so jealous  I also want la...i will save money and buy for myself de  stalk the bracelet page since after school and there are many bracelet that i wanna buy.  After SPM, i will make my own bracelet and sell, teehee 

Isn't them beautiful? 5 colours to choose from, makes me wanna buy them all 

6/7/15

Today is a sad day.

Don't know since when, u changed le....last time if u didn't receive my msg in half an hour, u will keep msg me until u reach me, now, u don't even care abt receiving my msg. En, msg is not important to u, but it is important to me. I care about u too much, love u more than u love me....until u take my love for u for granted.

Jeff, i won't care and love u so much le....i want give up le...i am tired for caring and hurting, again and again....i asked u if u don't love me dyy, u couldn't answer me, but just scolding me 😊

Maybe God want me to let go le, but i can't do that .....that heart breaking feeling, can u feel that? No, i think u have no feeling😀

Jeff, maybe one day u will find someone that u care a lot, i hope by that time u can understand my feelings😊

16/6

After a month, I am back here. I seldom write blog this year ,but i wanna write smtg here tonight....

Me and him? I don't know how to carry on this relationship anymore. Our relationship is getting worse. He didn't treat me the same way he used to be anymore.

Flashback to when we just started the relationship, i was treated like a treasure, i want study at night,he will accompany me the whole night didn't slp and stay awake till the next morning .When we Skype, we always Skype till almost the next morning and he never ask for slp. But now everything has changed. Slp has went important than me, yup, ME!

And i really wanna express everything here, HENG SONG JEFF, do u know that i am hurt? Do u know that i said commit suicide i really mean it? I took a blade but i don't know where to cut! I never have the commit suicide feeling when i am in a relationship with others, NO! this prove what? U hurt me very deeply!!! When u check ur results and u don't even bother to check mine. When u wanna slp and u can be so rude towards me....is this call as love me? Izit?!

Why do we always argue and fight? If u know how to understand me, all this would have avoided. When i am sad, what i need is someone to accompany, but u want slp.when i cry, what i need is a call and say are u okay, but u leave me alone. When i am sleepless, what i need is don't worry u will have me with u this whole night.Why u just can't do it now and the form 4 u can?! Arghhh, why u have to chg!!!! If u really love me everything like this should be automatically done by u!!!!

I hope u really chg urself better !!! when i am learning to tolerate u treating other girls good !!! I am trying and u didn't put in efforts, how to maintain a relationship if like that zzz!!!!! Arghhh, i want us to be good!!!@

16/5

Hello blog, haven't been updating you for a long time.

I know my result won't be good anyway, i will work hard next time ^^

Mummy doesn't want to help me photostat, she said that is too much and waste paper, u asked me to use a laptop, and it is so troublesome that i can't bring them to outside.mum, if i tell u this year i want photostat test paper as my birthday present can u photostat for me? Haih.

I think this year isn't a good year anyway, bad things keep happened. i hope everything will be okay

Haih

Words cannot describe my feeling,I am just so STRESS and yet I can't do anything.

I am stress not only because of studying ,it was mainly because of parents day. When I was young,I always hoping mummy to come to my school for parents day. Because teachers would praise me and my mum will be happy. But last year,Puan Goh was scary,she told my mum everything I did in school, so I was worry about this year,is she gonna say I am in a relationship and let teacher complain? Who can help me?:(

Next,I broke my self record that study 1 month earlier before exam. BUT the time seems not enough for me to use. I've lost my form 4 foundation,I have to start over everything. Haih,but that was still okay for me,the main reason that make me feel like crying is that I don't even rmb the thing I studied one day earlier!!!! Haiz,I think I will be the last in class :( I don't want this happened,It's not that I don't want to study ,It's just stress makes my mind blank.

Another problem that bothering me is my teeth,whatever I ate,it will ache.I hate it!!! Why that I can't enjoy my meal?haih....teeth can u treat me better? Pity the miserable me please.

I hope everything will come out my way,God I hope u will help me,I promised I will be a good girl if u helped me :( please