Tiring school day ..zzz

Yesterday I can't sleep well because I am excited for the school day..!! I am always like that..the last day of my holiday always ended sleeping at midnight. ..yesterday night I gave my mum my phone. .so..my sleepless night wasn't because I am playing with my phone. .

So today when my dad wake me up..I continue sleeping till I realised I am going to be late!! Omg..I rushed and didn't spray my hair :3 and my hair is messy like bushes after school. .. xD

I sit back to my old place which is in front of niker..and she told me many things abt her Australian boyfriend. .I quite jealous actually as I once hope that I can have a ah mo lang boyfriend. .but now..I got Jeff. .I don't need other guys anymore. .Jeff very sayang me and this is the first time I truly feel the love from someone.. thanks for loving me so much xD

I realised that I have lots of homework undone..OmG...the homework is like a mountain. ..I am gonna burn the midnight oil and finish them ..but then,I sit back to my old place..I try to concentrate on teacher agn..and I learned many things. .I think I have made a very wrong decision for letting anusha to sit with miraah...but I couldn't chg back as I think miraah look down on me :x because usually when got any questions, she only ask the pro one like sonia or jun wei. ..but I must oso admit that  I am not good la xD

A sad news. ..my chemistry teacher is going to give birth to her baby...and tmr is her last day..I quite regret for not cherishing her in the past few months. .she is a good teacher actually but I just don't like that she always talk bad abt my class to zamrud...

After school,jie cong called me suddenly when I was walking with jeff..he gave me two wristbands and said that jeff buy it for me...then I told him to give jeff because I tot he is playing with jeff's things agn...then jeff gave the wristbands to me and said this is for u..I am wearing too..bwahaha..is this couple wristbands ? Jeff,next time don't waste ur money to buy things for me...use that money to buy more food for u to eat okay ?u r too thin :(

I went to tuition at 3.15 p.m. but my tuition starts at 5.45 p.m.... I have no where to go but fruity. .so I stay there for lunch and do my chemistry homework. .I used up one hour to do one exercise. .like seriously ?omg...I need to do more revision ed :3 and then about 5.10 p.m..ker ryn reached fruity to pei me..after a while..jeff reached. .and ker ryn walked away T.T so jeff keep teaching me how to do chemistry and explain but I keep asking him the same thing over and over agn...I think he wanted to vomit blood dy :x

I am so exhausted now but I still doing my sej paper 3 !!!!! What the hell...my eyes is so heavy :x and I didn't do my promise that I promised jeff -sleep at the same time with him ...sorry papa...:( if I didn't say tht I will sleep at the same time with u , u will probably wait me till I finish my homework. .and I feel xin tong that u can't sleep because of me xD so this is an angel lie :p xD goodnight world..gonna continue my homework now :)

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Here I am again...I can't find other places to write down my feelings anymore. ..diary? Nope..my parents will read..Twitter?nope...it is too public. ..blog is the best place among all...

Yesterday was my black friday,I made people sad ?! I think so...and my mum just simply angry at people with no reason..Lololololol. ..everyone is abnormal. ..

Today when I wake up,I find that today is black Saturday too. ..someone is being different like last time. ..and I realised that it is hard to find a best friend that will not fight forever. ..primary school I have one..I miss you zi shan...

Maybe it is because that we are growing up,slowy,we face many problems. ..I don't want to have problem...especially friendship problem. ..I didn't have friendship problem before I enter form two. ..

Ok la..that's all..hope everything will be fine..and I hope someone will tell me what is going on..I don't want any misunderstanding happens when I am in mcc mood ..this is not worth and it breaks a friendship :3

Blog

Blog,u have cause me many problems :3
Before I met you,I don't really have misunderstanding with my friends. ..
Guess it's time for me to uninstall you

This will be the last post. .bye blog..thanks for letting me express my feelings out...especially those happy memories. .

That's why I don't really like to tell people what I feel :3 nor..it causes many prob like this :l

Sorry for ruining your mood by the way..
Actually I don't feel there is any misunderstanding between us..maybe it's just we don't understand each other

Ok that's all..bye

A short update about 22/3/2014

I woke up earlier than the past Sunday...I am having sleepless night yesterday....

Yesterday morning,I purposely wake up at 10.30 am because I knew that this is the time u finish ur tuition ...if it wasn't you,I would probably sleep until 1 o'clock. ..ok..you are back,and then u sent me four selfie of you. .I was very happy because I love to collect ur pics...saving your picture becomes one of my hobby now... And then out of the sudden,u ask me what to buy for a girl's birthday. ..I was jealous. .ok..I think there is no boyfriend that will ask his girlfriend about this ..and then I am hurt deeply. .I started to ignore you. .and even if I reply u,I never put any emoticon anymore. ..

Okay. .I think at last you realised something is wrong with me ...you msg me and ask...sorry..I can't tell you what is going on...As the truth will hurts you? Ya,I think so ...so it is better to keep it as a secret. ..

I am not someone who will share my feelings with anyone ...and yes this is Gemini. ..so...I let you wait for my reply for the whole day but in the end I still tell you nothing :x I am sorry...when I can't sleep yesterday,I think a lot...I try to put myself in your situation. ..and then,buying someone a present is not wrong ~

I asked myself why am I jealous of all those small matter. .maybe I don't feel safe with you ....and I think it was iwan to cause me feel this way..when he betrayed me..I built up a wall to shut everyone out from me..I am alert of everyone who comes near me...when people tell me something ,I won't believe it 100% anymore. ..

I know you're not someone like iwan...but it need time for me to put down the past and let go ...I am sorry for what I have done to you. ..

Okay..that's what I can say...I am trying  to be someone who won't get jealous,as this is not good for we both..give me sometime to change :)

Hope this will let you feel better ~ sorry once again..

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Okay..I don't know why..I feel sad and I got a bad feelings. .something is going to happen

Yesterday,u sent me goodnight and I love you as usual...and I didn't reply because I feel really sad ..and I thought you're sleeping already. ..

So I went to sleep too..and until this morning. .I saw your wechat post...it's something sad..and you don't wanna tell me what happened. .this makes me more sad actually. ..

I hope...you'll tell me everything. ..the feeling when people's hiding smtg from you is sad...ok..that's all ...

After the three torturing day

Woohoo...I survive the exam !!! Exam ,you're dead! !! I am the winner !!!

Today after exam,jeff told me that he is going to boon ping's house and go to grace tay tuition with boon ping...then I thought he is bringing his phone too :3

After I reach home,I was waiting his msg. .and I didn't on my Facebook because I want to watch k drama. ..after watching, I went to fb to see abt the news of MH 370 , and then I have one msg !!! It is from jeff!!! I don't know how to describe that feeling, I am happy when I receive his msg,haha...this is the first time I feel so happy because of one's msg..and I miss him so much although I just met him and talk to him in school today. .izit love ?

Haha...I am just too happy. .bye bye xD

7/3/14

Today isn't a happy day ~

Things that makes me sad :
1)wei fong told me it's too late to join Adult Exam...lol..I wasted rm 26.50 ...such a big amount of money..zzz
2)everyone is having study group tmr and I couldn't join
3)kem desafio is around the corner ~while everyone is having fun,I am alone at home
4)the weird fan feelings is coming back to me agn !!!
5)I feel that I am the stupidest among all my friends. .they are studying all the time and I am the only one who is fooling around
6)when I greet my bm teacher good morning,she don't even give response. .lol...what the hell..I won't greet you anymore
7)feel like everyone hates me ..and this is true
8)miss 2 intan so much and started thinking if time would go back

Too many things happened today..I can't stand it anymore. ..maybe I would die one day because of all these !

Late night post

today I was totally in bad mood until evening. ..I was rushing my bm homework as I am lazy to do in the past few days. I feel something wrong with me but I couldn't tell what was that ...so I feel very annoying and I don't feel any happy when I see jeff...

My mum is backed from work to fetch me for my bm tuition. .she talked to me many things but I just gave her a short reply as I don't feel like talking. .after that,I told my mum that I wanted to take a short nap in the car ...she let me to ~ I sleep for 10 mins in the car and feel happy like before!!! Now I know what is wrong with me --- too tired

When I reached delta,there was so hot that I can't stand for it ...Ker Ryn found one room which is freezing cold and we went inside..There's a small little girl inside the room who is just 11 years old ...her name is unknown as she don't wants to tell xD

After that,jeff said that we can go to class now...Wei Vvy didn't book seats for me and Ker ryn to sit...she gave the seat to Ganesh...I don't know why,I feel that Wei Vvy is changing. .. So me and Ker ryn have to find new seats as we wanted to sit together. ..we found one place that can sit three peoples ...and ker ryn let me sit with a boy ...I looked in front and find other seats...TING! There's an empty seat beside Jeff xD Wei Hong wanted to sit with jeff but kena chase away by jeff as I wanted to sit there xD

Jeff let me copy his rumusan and say many thing. .but I was too busy with the rumusan xD Finally,Grace Tay entered the class,she said that the place I sat was the place she wants to put her stuff..so I moved away and jeff followed me...

Jeff taught me a lot of new words during the bina ayat session... my vocabulary of BM is badd...too bad..extremely bad...ZZZ I have to read dictionary more :3 Jeff kept looking at my book when I was writing. .haha ...don't know what is he doing. .but I feel happy..

The BM tuition comes to the end and we packed our bags to go home~~~yay !! But something happened :3 I was 'too tall' and my head knocked into a shelf...omg..it was awkward and jeff looked at me... the knock on my head doesn't feel pain xD

Jeff sms me when I am in the car...he asked me if my head is still pain. .haha..he said his heart is pain ..so touch TT he gave me a 'kiss' on my forehead. .although this is not real kiss,but I still feel blissful xD

My day ends with a happy ending xD I have to sleep now ..if not I will be no mood agn tmr :3 goodnight world, goodnight jeff..love you!

Indescribable day

Today is the second day I sit far apart from ker ryn :( how I hope I could sit with her but I can't change place anymore. ..so I was lonely sitting with sushimita as she only talks about study...But actually I get many benefits by sitting with sushimita because I managed to finish my homework. .but as you know..doing homework is something boring :(

Okay..let's talk about add math lesson...today ,the practical teacher is no more teaching my class because she gets lots of complain..so she apply for afternoon session teaching. .then our real add math teacher is back !!! Welcome back teacher,I have been waiting for this day for so long...luckily you are teaching us chapter one :)

When add math lesson,jeff and jie cong come to my class from the back door.Jeff put roses on my table and jie cong said tht it was made by jeff. .I was quite shocked because jeff remembered his promise :') he said that he will learn to make roses and give me one everyday.

All those roses made my day! But something pull my mood down agn...jeff said he won't be staying back for co - curricular because he has lots of stuff to do..it's ok jeff,u don't have to say sorry ...let me miss you for one day ba xD

And ker ryn is not replying my msg..haiz..Nvrmind la..

This is the last post for today,tonight when the clock strikes 10,I have to giv my phone to mum agn ...early goodnight wish...see you!