I woke up earlier than the past Sunday...I am having sleepless night yesterday....
Yesterday morning,I purposely wake up at 10.30 am because I knew that this is the time u finish ur tuition ...if it wasn't you,I would probably sleep until 1 o'clock. ..ok..you are back,and then u sent me four selfie of you. .I was very happy because I love to collect ur pics...saving your picture becomes one of my hobby now... And then out of the sudden,u ask me what to buy for a girl's birthday. ..I was jealous. .ok..I think there is no boyfriend that will ask his girlfriend about this ..and then I am hurt deeply. .I started to ignore you. .and even if I reply u,I never put any emoticon anymore. ..
Okay. .I think at last you realised something is wrong with me ...you msg me and ask...sorry..I can't tell you what is going on...As the truth will hurts you? Ya,I think so ...so it is better to keep it as a secret. ..
I am not someone who will share my feelings with anyone ...and yes this is Gemini. ..so...I let you wait for my reply for the whole day but in the end I still tell you nothing :x I am sorry...when I can't sleep yesterday,I think a lot...I try to put myself in your situation. ..and then,buying someone a present is not wrong ~
I asked myself why am I jealous of all those small matter. .maybe I don't feel safe with you ....and I think it was iwan to cause me feel this way..when he betrayed me..I built up a wall to shut everyone out from me..I am alert of everyone who comes near me...when people tell me something ,I won't believe it 100% anymore. ..
I know you're not someone like iwan...but it need time for me to put down the past and let go ...I am sorry for what I have done to you. ..
Okay..that's what I can say...I am trying to be someone who won't get jealous,as this is not good for we both..give me sometime to change :)
Hope this will let you feel better ~ sorry once again..
